For some reason, the subject of agendas has been on my brain for the past few days. Not the fancy little notebook kind, although I need to update mine - I usually fall off the wagon and stop using it for about three weeks every year (it now happens with enough regularity that it can be considered as much a part of the agenda habit as is the habit of keeping an agenda).
The sorts of agendas I was originally referring to, however, are those of a more personal nature. What is everyone's agenda? What are they trying to accomplish, achieve, and what are they willing to do, say, or stomp on in order to get there. I've taken the opportunity to sit back and study agendas at work, while staying as far away from them as I possibly can. They range from the ultra selfish, to the completely selfless - and everything in between. There are martyrs and missionaries, villains and heroes, and snakes and underdogs. Overall, this has to be the most diverse and complex social structure I've encountered in the workplace thus far.
And despite all the personalities and egos, everyone's plan still seems to jive on one level: the end result.
Funny how everyone has such a different plan for how to get there. God help us if there's ever a company road trip - I can picture the backseat drivers now.
So I started thinking about my own agenda. And I realized that, in many respects, I just don't have one. Which weirded me out a bit more, I think, than the people who have one. Because by not having an agenda, how am I going to take my plans from point A to point B? What's my motivation? Agenda doesn't have to be a dirty word associated with negative or selfish behavior. It's simply a manifestation of motivation, which is really the cornerstone for character (at least, in the screen writing sense, but in the overall it feels applicable too).
So for my Friday Confession, here is my agenda - all public and live and naked for you to see:
• I'm going to be a working screenwriter. My motivation for doing so, is my love for entertaining others, and to be recognized for my written talent. And to flex my brain and earn a buck for doing so. I won't step on anyone who does anything to help me along that path - contributions grand, or tiny. If it comes down to me winning, or you winning, I'm going to do everything in my power to win. Because that's how I roll.
• I'm going to continue working as a belly dancer. My motivation for doing so is again my love for entertaining others. My love for costumes and shiny things, however, continues to drive my need to find regular, gainful employment as a dancer. My secondary motivation is to earn extra dollars that can be put towards the 'Philsy and Miss Erin need a home' fund.
Things that motivate my agenda specifically: Financial stability, new information or skills, friendship exchange. Financial stability and stable home life are definitely at the top of my list right now, as the work stress has tripled and the need for sanctuary at the end of the day is enormous.
Lucky for me, I have Philsy, who is the largest piece of that puzzle. Speaking of Philsy, check out his new phlog!
Peace out, yo. Happy Weekend!